HORROR..

I can’t see blood. Blood make me feel fear, it’s horrifying. I can see blood only in a small quantity. So that, when I was doing my experiments during my medic studies last 2 years on some animals, I can handle that fear; only small figure animals involved in my experiments such as rabbit, mouse and frog ( do you know that mouse has perfect digestive systems?? ). Seeing blood in bulk can make me nausea.

An example, last Hari Raya Korban, my family did sacrifice a cow to celebrate that Hari Raya. I that time was the cameraman who need to record those precious moments. At first, I felt very excited and happy because my relatives compete each other to be in front of my camera to give their speeches about what they feel during that Hari Raya and everyone needs to give special wish to our beloved granny ( my grandfather had died before I exist). When come the time to me to record the moment when that cow fell off to be sacrifice, I refused to do that job because I felt pity to that cow and crying suddenly. My sister laughed at me and she replaced me to do that job.

Same happen when I see any accident that occurred in front of my own eyes. I usually very interested to see the accidents but I scared to see closely. This is because I’m always recall back what I saw when I ‘m alone. It wills scaring me when I can see person in blood in my mind! Actually, there are many things that can horrific me. Anything that strange to see also can make me fear and scared of it. The basic is, I’m a coward! Hehe..